Like lets say; you break a rule... if they deem it serious enough nthey throw you in "the hole" for an unspecified amount of time depending on your charge... for example I am currently in the hole because I smoked a big fat ass joint.... or two, of some crippie bud. Now I'm not one to get into trouble very often but; this place... just the overwhelming stress of being in prison for a long time... it gets to you sometimes... and while I love my wife and, God first and for most; Well, you have to be here to understand the pressure, the weight of serving some real time.... and that not a cop out it's a simple fact ; hard time bears a huge burden on your shoulders that no one could possibly understand unless you have been there...
I've never been to Vietnam but I have a huge almost of respect for those brave men that were over there... not because I've been there, but because I am aware of the burden they bear as well ... no " normal" person could understand this.... and oddly enough that's as it should be...but ; with that in mind one should always give consideration and, at the least have mercy on things they don't quite understand. Instead of always punish out of fear or lack of understanding.
Bottom Line is ... I made a bad choice...
No two ways of looking at it but, should my loved ones be punished as well and; be denied the chance to see me, for my kids to spend time with there dad? For that to be taken from them???
To me... well, where is the Justice in that? A strong family net work is the only positive thing a man can have in prison... So... how does taking away the only thing positive in his life help him reform, get better ... whatever?
Why not take my canteen privileges or something? Places like this are supposed to encourage family ties; not discourage; yet in essence it is exactly what's being done... I am here now and I've accepted what happen to me yet I can't help but to feel that something else here needs to change here besides just me... for often all, don't we just become products of our own environment? Let me know what you guys think out there; while I sit here and get back to work on me...
and my will power, until next time.
The Gray Mensch
