Crazy Train!!!!

Well I had one crazy week here at good old Marion C.I.... Seems like just when I thought my living arrangements were getting better, we still ended up with a few turds that weren't flushed out. At any rate being the type of person I am ( positive) I've made good judgment calls about the kind of people I associate myself with; keeping God at the for front of my life actually has in itself improved my quality of life that I have in a  place like this.. So my wife will be coming to see me soon and I'm always amped to see her and our kids; life in here has limits and while that sucks, I realize how blessed I am to have a loving wife and children whom don't let limits stop them from loving me and showing it.
My wife and kids made me feel like that something special; I will be strong for my family when I come home.... Lord knows they all deserve the very best I have to offer and then some. Anyways we have had some issues here at Marion about our Jewish Holiday items; which is actually against the law.. seems the head chaplain here says that Tallahassee has denied our Purim packages, and so of course with High Holiday like Passover and such on the horizon, I have taken issue with this... Boy!

 As I've said being a Jew in Prison is hard, now our Holiday are in fact recognized by D.O.C, but can be tricky at times, long story short we can't celebrate properly with out the proper items... this head chaplain here is a bad man whom shouldn't be in the position he's in; peoples faith, regardless of there beliefs should not be infringed upon by some one especially someone who doesn't care. As this man takes issues with every faith, he will indeed try to get you to leave yours and I've seen him leave the compound instead of contacting an inmate to tell them  a loved one has had a stroke and is the hospital.... or someone calls and notifies him that someone died and to please inform there loved one who's in prison of this.. and he doesn't. People file grievance after grievance on him yet still he's here hurting and hindering people ability to practice there Religion. what can be done?
Not sure but I still try to be open an honest with the man, So that he feels likewise inclined yet, he will laugh in my face by telling me a lie and smile.
I wish I could change things for the better; but I'm only one man and at times point.
I'm just trying to get home to my family...

Evil men aren't always in prison where they belong and Mr. Thompson the head chaplain here is living proof of it. Anyways we have peanut butter and jelly for lunch and chicken for dinner tonight.. My god you should see all these cows run, no respect just greed and hunger; I'll be glad to leave this pop cycle stand once and for all next year... anyhow you finally get to the " chow" hall and what do you get? More animals of course, some guys in here don't shower, like I mean for days, then you got the ones who do shower, but put the same clothes back on and they smell.. well like shit and anything else you can think of; also you got the guys who smoke that are like winors on the street with out the booze instead they have these fingers, index and thumb that looks like they been eaten Cheetos's all day, just orange or dark resin brown, from all the cigarettes and whatever else they smoke..... it's nasty! One look at these guys and you know that they were nothing but a Fran on society, don't get me wrong, I'm all for helping some one get on there feet... but you have people out there that don't want help, just a handout.. well call me old fashioned, but my mom & dad tought me that you take care of the things that need to be taken care of.. you find a way to work though your problems, not wallow in them like these idiots that will surly return to prison where they can be taken care of by .. well,... you the tax payer; I don't like that crap!

I broke laws yes but, I ain't a lier or fucking lazy, or helpless... can anyone see what's wrong with the way they handle things in our Justice System? It's all about money to the Pollutions, a warm body in storage means money! Money for them, money for the State ... in Florida we go by numbers to identify a prisoner, example: John Doe o-123456 and so if you come back to prion a second time you get the same # but with an added letter like such : A-123456 now that said, why in the hell are there guys walking around here with F and G, even I've seen a K before that's crazy! 12 times.. this person has been in prison; what's the deal? Or rather what's the problem? These people are using the prison for free room and board; they ain't repaying the dept. to society they are adding to the bill... what's the answer?
I don't know but, I got sentenced to 23 yrs, no one died, as a young kid I had been in prison once burglary and auto theft .. 23 years.. I was 24 or 25 yrs old, A man owed me money, I went and took it back because he decided he wasn't going to pay me back... Stupid really, I'm here because of $400.00 which to me at the time was alot.... I worked my ass off back then, had my own place and was making payments on my house and that man borrowing money from me and not returning it put me in a pretty bad situation with my bills and so... here I am all these years later grown up now trying to be rebuilt.. my father, grandmother, and grandfather have all passed away.. Life as I knew is gone; never able to be replaced again.. but I paid taxes, I paid my dues and now it's time for me to come home...
I'm ready for the world I just don't know if it's quite ready for me yet; with luck it won't chew me up and spit me back out! At any rate that's my rant for now, until next time...

The Mensch

Hey people.. what's up?

I know... long time no hear from me, well prison life has been "crazy" as of late... a lot of changes in the big house, especially this one where I'm at; So as most of you know we already have plenty of zombies. Well looks like now they want to add bat shit crazy ones to the list of new arrivals... I'm talking like 'medication' crazy people!!!As in.. "I'm fucking really crazy" people .

At any rate that's the knew news around here... and me being down 14 months left on the inside here well; I've just been staying in contact with my small group of family and friends... BUT it's the new year... 2017!!!

And damn if I ain't excited about it. I'd be lying if I didn't tell you guys I day dream about days and nights with my wife and kids... but.. also gone from freedom for so long, be lying if I didn't ---- tell you that I also dream about being on my Road King throttle bent to the hilt and wind kickin in my ear's while I look on to nothing but miles and miles of empty road ahead of me... that all will be me and, soon. Times are hard for my family and friends; for all in the world, I'm sure .. but things have been hard inside for years.. decades in fact for me... hell I've been living in a war zone most of my life in here...... but I'm a survivor. A person who knows how to live and in this day and age I'm consider an antique.. while the world around me has there faces firmly planted in there smart phones, I will be paying attention to life,  and the truly important things around me that; I've come to both love and appreciate. Live people... live and always love your family.... honor them by your actions show and lead by example, never let anyone tell you that you can't be strong and still love because that just isn't true.

Lessons are learned every single day but if your not paying attention...... well life can and will pass you by. I've got people of all ages in this place that come up to me all the time and ask me how I do it (all my time), and my answer is always the same ... " with a smile ". I tell them because if you don't learn to laugh and smile in this place...... you can get lost in it.. become it... and that's just not me; I have learn ed to "Blend in" not become a part of what surrounds me, I choose the people whom I talk to wisely I pay attention to details and I always learn from people.

At any rate, I've got a great sense  of humor which can remove barriers that some people have put up around them. I try my best to spread my smile in this environment  because places like these need light lest we become to ally dark now I'm sure you the reader says well a prison becomes a dark place so what...       well let me explain why that's the wrong way of thinking; people get out of these places... Now I've got a wife and kids myself and believe me there are monsters in these places that needs to remain in here forever.. but they don't. And that's my point; I want the people ( at least the ones in here that I surround myself with, leave this place and spread more laughter and smile (light) rather than get out and spread a bunch of darkness...) I love people, but not all people love back. Some are mean and hateful... I fear them types of people getting out of here and so if can change even one of them into light... then I've served my community on the outside, a public service of sorts... that's the way I do things to help from in here. We are now in the whole new year an soon it will my turn to get out and spread my light... I'm excited and nervous because it's been so long since I've been out there and I know things have changed I know that gay marriage is accepted and legal now; I know that people of transgender can go into either bathroom they choose in a public places.... So the world I know is gone and a new one is in fact here now, while I'm not gay I am excited to see this new world.. I've also got a seizure disorder and know that medical marijuana is now legal here in Florida, So I'd like to know where that can go in the future. Anyways.. not sure what you guys listen to out there, but I love me some five fingers death punch and so that what I've been jamming on the play list. Which brings me to my next topic, see we have an MP 3-4 program here in Florida that.. well it SUCKS!!! 

They sensor everything and charge too much! Not to mention it's from the stone age and that's coming from someone who's a dinosaur himself, rumor has it that these things are now done and tablets are going to be sold.. well at $1.70 a song I had 600 songs on my M.P. player and I just bet they try to fuck us and say that they won't transfer my music to a tablet much less reimburse my people money because I will have an old device that can no longer be used..... Scam after Scam; that seems to be the Florida Prisons motto get more out of them! Mean while the food Sucks.. I'm Jewish and the Kosher here is a joke!! ( I don't eat it).                  I mean .. when is enough , enough? Thanks GOD!!, I'm leaving this system but it's my honest opinion that's true and that is people in some office in the Capital of Florida have no business making decisions about the working of Prions and Inmate unless they've actually been working in the trenches in the prisons like     a " well seasonal officer" at any rate this crap pisses me off but I will smile about it and move on...

First let me ask a question does any of my readers ride motorcycles? if so... give a shout out.. I plan on putting together a ride at some point when I get out.. of course I'd like to hit Sturgis (South Dakota) when I get out but they also got this real cool meet-ride I read about somewhere, maybe ( The Horse) but it's out in Arizona and it sounds like it's off the rails and right up my ally... does anyone know the ride  I'm talking about? Let me know. I promised my wife that "I'd write to the people and I think I've made good on it...

Sorry that it's been so long folks! It's hard being a Biker Jew in Prison and that's just a fact. I will try putting up weekly so you guys hear me., and will continue to write upon my release along with pictures, art, and just a bunch of cool shit... I am planning  on running lots of Ink here in Florida so when ever in town look me up.. (name of shop coming soon) I'll wet you guys and gals up.. discounts for Vets., and people who have proof they're just gotten out of the Can, or that they did a significant bid on the inside .... no posers!

Bikers...well you guys always get a discount at my shop... I'll keep you posted on that, until then .. heads up throttles open my friends.

                                 The Mensch

2017

Starting the New Year right, still have my queen by side.... staying strong and keeping it real with me.