Well I had one crazy week here at good old Marion C.I.... Seems like just when I thought my living arrangements were getting better, we still ended up with a few turds that weren't flushed out. At any rate being the type of person I am ( positive) I've made good judgment calls about the kind of people I associate myself with; keeping God at the for front of my life actually has in itself improved my quality of life that I have in a place like this.. So my wife will be coming to see me soon and I'm always amped to see her and our kids; life in here has limits and while that sucks, I realize how blessed I am to have a loving wife and children whom don't let limits stop them from loving me and showing it.
My wife and kids made me feel like that something special; I will be strong for my family when I come home.... Lord knows they all deserve the very best I have to offer and then some. Anyways we have had some issues here at Marion about our Jewish Holiday items; which is actually against the law.. seems the head chaplain here says that Tallahassee has denied our Purim packages, and so of course with High Holiday like Passover and such on the horizon, I have taken issue with this... Boy!
As I've said being a Jew in Prison is hard, now our Holiday are in fact recognized by D.O.C, but can be tricky at times, long story short we can't celebrate properly with out the proper items... this head chaplain here is a bad man whom shouldn't be in the position he's in; peoples faith, regardless of there beliefs should not be infringed upon by some one especially someone who doesn't care. As this man takes issues with every faith, he will indeed try to get you to leave yours and I've seen him leave the compound instead of contacting an inmate to tell them a loved one has had a stroke and is the hospital.... or someone calls and notifies him that someone died and to please inform there loved one who's in prison of this.. and he doesn't. People file grievance after grievance on him yet still he's here hurting and hindering people ability to practice there Religion. what can be done?
Not sure but I still try to be open an honest with the man, So that he feels likewise inclined yet, he will laugh in my face by telling me a lie and smile.
I wish I could change things for the better; but I'm only one man and at times point.
I'm just trying to get home to my family...
Evil men aren't always in prison where they belong and Mr. Thompson the head chaplain here is living proof of it. Anyways we have peanut butter and jelly for lunch and chicken for dinner tonight.. My god you should see all these cows run, no respect just greed and hunger; I'll be glad to leave this pop cycle stand once and for all next year... anyhow you finally get to the " chow" hall and what do you get? More animals of course, some guys in here don't shower, like I mean for days, then you got the ones who do shower, but put the same clothes back on and they smell.. well like shit and anything else you can think of; also you got the guys who smoke that are like winors on the street with out the booze instead they have these fingers, index and thumb that looks like they been eaten Cheetos's all day, just orange or dark resin brown, from all the cigarettes and whatever else they smoke..... it's nasty! One look at these guys and you know that they were nothing but a Fran on society, don't get me wrong, I'm all for helping some one get on there feet... but you have people out there that don't want help, just a handout.. well call me old fashioned, but my mom & dad tought me that you take care of the things that need to be taken care of.. you find a way to work though your problems, not wallow in them like these idiots that will surly return to prison where they can be taken care of by .. well,... you the tax payer; I don't like that crap!
I broke laws yes but, I ain't a lier or fucking lazy, or helpless... can anyone see what's wrong with the way they handle things in our Justice System? It's all about money to the Pollutions, a warm body in storage means money! Money for them, money for the State ... in Florida we go by numbers to identify a prisoner, example: John Doe o-123456 and so if you come back to prion a second time you get the same # but with an added letter like such : A-123456 now that said, why in the hell are there guys walking around here with F and G, even I've seen a K before that's crazy! 12 times.. this person has been in prison; what's the deal? Or rather what's the problem? These people are using the prison for free room and board; they ain't repaying the dept. to society they are adding to the bill... what's the answer?
I don't know but, I got sentenced to 23 yrs, no one died, as a young kid I had been in prison once burglary and auto theft .. 23 years.. I was 24 or 25 yrs old, A man owed me money, I went and took it back because he decided he wasn't going to pay me back... Stupid really, I'm here because of $400.00 which to me at the time was alot.... I worked my ass off back then, had my own place and was making payments on my house and that man borrowing money from me and not returning it put me in a pretty bad situation with my bills and so... here I am all these years later grown up now trying to be rebuilt.. my father, grandmother, and grandfather have all passed away.. Life as I knew is gone; never able to be replaced again.. but I paid taxes, I paid my dues and now it's time for me to come home...
I'm ready for the world I just don't know if it's quite ready for me yet; with luck it won't chew me up and spit me back out! At any rate that's my rant for now, until next time...
The Mensch
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