Dream.......

Dreams live in us all I think; sometimes they come true and, other times they are pushes back... but never forgotten, for some it's pipe dreams, others it's a sure thing just waiting for the right timing. In my case I have a beautiful wife and great kids, but there ... just out of reach is my bike... and on days like today my bike takes a back seat to my family; my wife is awesome!!!!
And she wants from me what I want from her.. happiness, and to be happy, what she may not realize is when it comes to her and the kids; I always choose them and will continue to do so., because "they" are  what makes me happy. For 20 plus years I have been behind a fence and not on two wheels but I still lead a pack and that pack is my family. 😃

Soon these gates will be open to me and a new man will step out these gates.... I just won't be alone inside now; and that my friend , soothe the soul. This road for me is coming to a close and a new one will open. I might not be riding through it on two wheels just yet, but I am riding through it my friends and to say that I am not happy about that would be a lie. What sucks for me is I will miss this years smoke-out but I will I think make it to next years on my bike... until then I will have to be content with listening it Road Hogs by:

and reading my The Horse Backstreet Choppers / thehorsebc.com

Suck, Bang , Blow / suck,bang,blow.com

here I come!!!! Pipe dream? I hope not but realistically I might not be able to get the Road King A.S.A.P...

So in that event what  might happen is a Sportster

that I might have to modify.... bigger tank. Chopped up split frame , lets see what happens.....

one thing is for sure!

I'm already living in my dream,  because family, my family will be along the way no pipe dream here!

Just an American Dream slowly forming true, what more could a man dream for?

Keep you posted friend.

The Mentch 

Valentines Day

Well.... Valentines Day has just past and I hope all you remember to have told your special someone just how important they are... now I don't buy into the whole commercialization of Valentines Day but; I do believe it works great as a reminder to all the schlep that forget to tell there significant other how special they are though out the year.
Anyways... being in prison and ab serving this Holiday take place is quit an event; people selling cards left and right, others just can't seem to sell any, then you have all the inmates who have just burnt all their bridges with family and friends to the point they have no money, and if they did.... no one to send a card too, and as crazy as that sounds..... they are a lot of inmates like that here... no money, no love ones...  no hope, how a person lives in here is usually a reflection of how they lived their lives out there.... a real " I don't give a shit" attitude about life in general, all selfish thoughts and, considerate to none but themselves.
When I write my wife, or have a visits with my family; I am truly humbled by the sacrifices that they make on my behalf.... I have come to acknowledge and appreciate  all my loved ones do for me; and while I know that a card or letter can't compare with the things they do for me, I hope it's a small gesture of my appreciation in acknowledgement of all they do for me; a reminder that I will not ever forget the strength and loyalty they've shown me though the years.

My wife and I; we have always been bestfriends first and for most, then husband and father; this has allowed us to enjoy what a lot of people don't truly have in their relationship...
"communication"  open and honest, we've had a lot of "haters" that just don't get it and, that's cool because, all we know is what works for us and our relationship.... no one likes to air their dirty laundry in the open, but at the same time people need to understand that their is in fact a time, a place, and a person to " air things out" with. I for one can appreciate my wife lending a strong ear when I'm "venting" and Lord knows she appreciates mine... We have grown a great deal over the years, past our broken relationships with others; distant family relations that have just grown colder with time and friends whom over the years have just shown their true colors and what was really behind their intentions befriending you years prior.... life goes on and we become smarter as to the actions and reactions of others over time... I've been judged by people who don't know me most of my life but when some one or some people that you consider family in your eyes choose to judges you.... well it hurts.

I've been a boy with no worries, a fool with careless actions and a man that has learned from his mistakes and faults..... it's called growing up  but; always there will be some who will only remember you for what and where you've been, not where and who you have become today. Life is precious, appreciate it; and respect humanity around you.... even in a place like prison I've chosen to appreciate my humanity and others.... thus I write the story's I do; crud they may be, my goal is for you to see and somewhat feel the things I do... and guess what? No matter what your opinion...
I will still always respect you as a person.

Look prison sucks! Food sucks, taking showers with a bunch of dudes.. sucks, taking a shit while some one brushes there teeth right in front of you sucks. But for me , if I can't laugh at this situation... well then I will be the one choosing to loose my humanity.....
I've got no time for looking back in life; only forward to what tomorrow holds.... and hopefully allow my family and friends { the ones who have been there for me } to know how much I do appreciate them and what it takes to make any kind of friendship/ relationship commitment to a convict.......
and that's just real!!!!!

The Mentch

Switchin Up!!!!

Well... the move is made and here I am in my new dorm,.. it's crazy really because I didn't think that there was a place in prison where man didn't act like an animal; I was wrong. There are good man in this dorm and I find myself breathing a breath of relaxation in here, it's a comfort and by product of a group of people just trying to do positive things with their lives and making changes. I can leave  my locker open all day full of canteen and when I get back to the dorm it's still their!!! It's true no one steals here and all have, we are like a big family here, we all look out for each other... it's truly been a blessing for me to be in this dorm. I'm expected to take classes each week, 4 of them to be exact and I'm cool with that self betterment can do me no harm...
But by the time you all read this I will just be starting my first class, I'll keep you posted on how that all works out. Anyways life's good!.... and it's going to get better for me. I wish that things could always turn out good, but in the real world we all know that isn't always the case; So don't expect it.

At any rate, we go through an inspection here every morning , five days a week.... We lost some real good men today during the transfer run, bunch of older dudes... who have been on this chain gang crew awhile: Dale ward, Spider, Saggie, John Henry, hopefully you guys have moved on to bigger and better things . A special shut out to Honky, and Mark Jackson, we lost a lot of solid men today(3/3/2017). I wonder what we got.... only time will tell; Lord knows nature will always take it's course in the end, but DAMM! I don't want things to turn "Savage Life" here until I've punched my end of sentence ticket here....  let the good times roll...

I miss my ace dice!!!
Hooligan if your out there listening man, I wish you had came to this spot with me it's truly heaven, in hell.... I just hope you are fairly well where ever you may be...did you bring your fishing rod?Anyways your book was sent to your mom, and all you out there that don't know what's going on.... well shit!  only life in the chain gang.... but freedoms ringing at my door and I'm in 12 month plan to answer that knocking....

 My lovely wife , my soldier at arms who would of thought? All these years... life is crazy but when things bigger than us take charge you dived the light in your life within you and the people around you. Life is about stepping up when it's your turn to contribute.... Well have I told all of you out there how great it feels to be in control of the direction of my life???
It's true... I had a visit this past weekend and received a surprise when I went out there and saw that my wife had thought to bring  my mom to see me...yea that's right  I am a little bit of a mama's boy; it's been 3  years since my mom had last came to see me and the visit then had went badly; and I regret that confrontation .... this time my mom and I actually had a pretty darn good visit... I know it was hard on her yet she came anyways and that meant a lot to me.. We all grow up at times in our lives we have to be adults and so it was not lost on me what it took for my mom to come visit... I am humbled and yes God is big; truly things are changing in my life and for the better but I believe it's also changing the people life's around me for the better as well. I love my life and I just can't wait for the next chapter!!! Life really is to short to be bull shitting and so we have to really live life each day to the fullest! On that note I will close this out and get with you all the next time. I will say this... for all's pleasure next time I have a true story of a real battle royal, this one will have all kinds of crazy shit, it will truly give you all a birds eye view from out there of how things can go really bad at a moments notice.
Till next time, two in your lane and kindness screaming!!!

The Mentch  

Moving On.....

Well it's day 3 of the fourth bus of nut bags that are arriving here, this last bus being from a place they call Lake C.I. at any rate as I was talking to my wife last night I witness a guy just start waiving his hand and spinning in a circle all at the same time he was talking to himself amazing to say the least. So a week ago one of these idiot's decides to check in (Protective Custody) for one reason or the other, So how does he do it.... well he just happens to be what they call a "cutter". So he gets a razor and cuts the back of his neck; well now it looks like we have lost the privilege of getting razors to shave with.... So I am wolf manning,  and plan to continue doing so until I can shave with a decent razor...Oh! We also have a guy who thinks he's a chicken... no I'm being serious !!! As a cluck-cluck-cluck!
Real winners,.... I've got no idea of what's going to happen next week in this dump and yet you have administration and security worries about some weekly housing inspection, talk about having you priorities messed up!!

We had chili rice today at lunch and it was interesting. Anyway; I met this dude that came here some years back.... it's been maybe close to 4 years I've known this guy; at any rate we were tight, like brothers when people saw us they called out Mike & Mike because we both have the same first name, So he was... is, a close friend. Well this past Friday they up rooted him and transfer him to another prison.... you get  to know a guy pretty well when he sleep right in the bunk next to you and as I said 4 years is along time, So it sucks for me. I've been in the dumps a little but I'm optimistic about the future I have 12 months left in the "can" and he has 22, So we will hang out there... it's just that there is only one Hooligan and once you met him he's hard not to like, he's been my personal tattoo artist for the past 3 yrs., or so and thanks to him I have a beautiful full body suit. Hooligan loves to ride motorcycles and so, I will see him on some poker run or other out there on the other side... from what I hear Lake C.I. isn't exactly what it use to be... but hey! What is anymore?

The Country I love so much is gone ape shit with hate and things are no longer as old fashion as I'd like them to be. Be that as it may, I still love my country and what to see things be great again; I have seen even in here, that change happens and there isn't much you can do to stop it or slow it down... it chooses it's own pace and we are all just along for part of the ride.

Since my friend left, there is no longer  a reason to live in the dorm I am in.. So I have chosen to take a bunch of self betterment classes and better my life style and condition by moving to this program dorm..... I will keep you all posted on that and life in general... I pray things go well and smoothly but, there are always catches to things. I have another friend here, a felon convict that I've known 5-7 years now, older guy and a Veteran we talk a lot and I have confided in him things and vice a verse, his mother has been very ill and she  went through two heart surgeries they gave her 3-4 months to live and George still has 5 months to go before getting out... he was really worried about the whole thing because his mom; like me... is the only remaining parent he has left...
Well last nigh he found out that his mom didn't make it; he wasn't crying but I knew inside this was tearing him up, I let him be... but today is ( Monday 2-27-17) a new day and so I made him walk out side with me to the canteen and I bought a burger, coke, and ice cream, And told him " George! you must eat the ice cream first!" and he asked me why and I explained to him that my mom once told me when I was little that: Ice cream makes everything better. So... sometimes there are just days that I have to put that to the test!!!!
He laughed thanked me and shook my hand ..... I like old man George and so did Hooligan... he will be saddened to hear of George's mom passing.

Life is short learn to live, enjoy it because it's over way to quickly. Until my next post.... chill

 The Mentch